Give me one moment in time...

Whitney Houston is stuck in my head, its raining outside, I'm eating a bowl of (you guess it)...oatmeal and I'm thinking thats its been a whole month since I joined WW.

Pros:
1. I'm learning to ditch the all or nothing attitude and believe me, I never thought that I would be able to. Blowing one day doesn't amount to blowing a month.

2. For the first time in a long time, I feel in control. Sure I slip up (you guys know that!) but I'm learning to look myself straight in the mirror. Face it, Accept it, Defeat it. The hardest step is the first step; facing it.

3. I've learned a lot from the blogging community! Thanks you guys :)

4. Special shout out to Dottie and DWLZ...she keeps me sane

5. I've realized that logically as a student and as someone whose social life is made up of people in their 20s, food and eating out and drinks are a major part of any social gathering. Most people don't have time to cook and even lesser time to plan. I can't realistically cut myself from eating out ever but I've seriously learned how to make little substitutions to get big results. Who knew self control was a virtue I had?

6. I took a peak at the scale today and it showed 190.6. Maybe I can hit 180's by March 1st.

7. I'm loving the 80 degree weather out today...not so much the 45 degrees its supposed to be tomm. Damn Texas, so fickle!

8. I lost a total of 3.6 lbs this month!

Cons:

1. I had more than a few splurges this month. Yes, I was learning and I was patient with myself but I have got to learn to follow the plan to a T...splurges have to be just this. Splurges.

2. It was a really hard month for me in my personal life: work was bad, graduation is upcoming and I'm still jobless/graduate school less, the BF left and is moving to NY.

3. I only lost 3.6 lbs this week. I definitely could have done better if I hadn't been so splurgy this month but honestly, I learned from it. More, probably, than staying on plan everyday would have taught me. I don't want to be that girl thats so hard on myself that the minute I see a piece of bread or a french Fri I eat the whole place down.

I'm sure theres more to add to both lists but so far so good.

On other news:

1. The BF was in town this weekend; we splurged on food and drinks and time; went to bed early, woke up late and just relaxed.

2. Went to studio movie grill and vantage point on Saturday night...I highly recommend the movie; I thought it was pretty great but I always sorta like government conspiracy movies so go watch it if you are into that sort of thing.

3. Got one workout in, not 2 but one.

4. I miss the BF whose moving to NY city on Thursday. I'll still be in Dallas :(

5. I have a huge presentation and test tomorrow. Boo.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.